Reflection

Remember reading about Old Jack and his loser ways?
Well, let's talk about Kid Jack as I will call him.


Back in the year 2003, Kid Jack was very quiet in class and amongst his peers. Sure enough, there were some annoying aspects like his inappropriate swearing and uncalled for name-calling, but he was just a kid. At school, he barely spoke to the girls, I have yet to understand why he was so shy (not like he was pursuing any of them anyway). His weight didn't decrease and his health wasn't all that great.

But the next part is the defining moment in the first transformation of Jack.

There was a special girl at that time that made him feel awesome, both inside and out (oh yeah, she did). That was the one and only time he was sure that someone actually liked him, and that is, more than just a friend. She would call him every night, every week for the next two years and they would talk till she falls asleep or sun rises. During those two years, his morale was fairly good amongst his friends. The girls would all talk to him on MSN (and on conference calls) and the guys would call him out for gaming or whatever. He'd actually chat up girls and make more and more friends.

Now this is where the big change happened.

Because he chatted girls up, he ended up with this one girl who, coincidentally, was on bad terms with the girl that calls him.

Now ...
The new girl made Kid Jack believe that there was something special between the two and in short, he pursued her. Phone Girl and Kid Jack started to fall apart. But when Playeress left Kid Jack, for no reason, apparently, he was devastated, but Phone Girl was there for him and just like that, his original feelings for her resurfaced and he told her about it at the end of that year (2004). That's when Phone Girl finally admitted her feelings but denied him of the potential great relationship, because he took too long and didn't seem loyal enough (since he was with another girl while still chatting with Phone Girl every night). Just like that, she ended up with this jerk who gave her her first 'smoke'. Kid Jack was once again devastated and as a result became withdrawn, losing confidence and social interactions, and even creating enemies because of his negative outlook on life and lack of care for his own sake.


This explains why I've never been able to ask my friend out. Because of the fear of going through those painful feelings again, I have denied myself and her the truth. Sad part is, when another girl comes along one day, I'll still be thinking, "What if?" But hey, if we were meant to be, then no girl in the world can change it, or I stay single for tr a girl will change it, or I stay single for the rest of my life.


Now the million dollar question on your mind is:
Where the flying cake is this guy's balls?


NOTE: Phone Girl grew up to be a a beautiful girl in a great relationship. She doesn't smoke, and she is leading a very happy life (as far as I know).